’90 Day Fiance: Is Ashley Martson still in love with Jay Smith?

No matter how awful someone is to you in a relationship, it’s not easy to get over it. The time it takes to get out of a relationship is usually related to the effort you put in to make the commitment. Former 90 Day Fiance cast member Ashley Martson gave her everything in her relationship with Jay Smith. She married him against the advice of her friends and family. She moved him to the U.S., knowing that she would have to work and take care of both of them. Even when it turned out that Smith had asked other women at Tinder and invited them to come to Ashley Martson’s house while she was working, she still stayed with him.

Now that the two former lovers are officially finished, is Ashley Martson finally over Smith?

’90 Day Fiance: Ashley Martson and Jay Smith’s breakup

The two finished their 90 Day Fiance season on rocky ground but still together. But when a woman claimed that Smith had gotten her pregnant, Ashley Martson eventually left the relationship for good.

“I’m a great believer in following your heart and it’s true that I took Jay back,” she said in Touch. “I know people will judge me and although I can accept that, it was ultimately my decision. But what my girlfriend says turned out to be true and Jay himself confirmed on the phone that he did have another girl claiming he got her pregnant. He said he doesn’t believe her, but they’re going to do a test and anyway, it’s clear he cheated on me”.

“I’m desperate again and pick up the pieces and do my best to move on,” she continued. “I know I only blame myself for the situation I’m in again. It’s nobody’s fault except mine. I can safely say I’m done with Jay once and for all.”

Is Ashley Martson still in love with Jay?

Martson will go without Smith in 2020 and she made sure to let everyone know on Instagram.

“This is as raw and real as I can be,” she wrote a picture of her crying. “I’m fighting tears by typing this. This year has been tough. This picture was accidentally taken on the night of my birthday party in New York City. We’d just gotten divorced and I filed for a second time. The tabloids attacked me at my events all week about my failed marriage. He came to my party unannounced.”

“When I walked out the door and got into the Uber with @ritzy_rina, I just lost it. The tears came out. It was the moment I knew… I knew I had failed. I failed in my marriage, me, my children. My heart was broken into a million pieces and the walls had completely collapsed around me.”

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This is as raw and real as I can be. I’m fighting the tears just typing this. This year has been tough. This photo was taken accidentally the night of my birthday party in New York City. We had just split and I filed for divorce for the second time. The tabloids attacked me at my events all week about my failed marriage. He showed up to my party, unannounced. We were civil and had an appearance the next day so it was okay. He said Happy Birthday. He had drinks and hung out with his friends. As I walked out the door and got in the Uber with @ritzy_rina I just lost it. The tears came pouring out. It was the moment I knew… I knew I failed. I failed my marriage, myself, my children. My heart was broken into a million pieces and the walls completely caved in around me. Everything I kept bottled in poured out of my eyes in the back of this Uber. My best friend, who is a true best friend, didn’t even ask. She just began crying as well. She saw me hurt for so long and try and act like I was okay even though she knew I wasn’t okay. She felt my pain and we both just cried. The whole ride to our hotel. I never felt a hurt like this in my life. Ever. I’m not blaming all this on him. That’s not why I’m posting this. I just want men and women to both know it’s okay to not be okay. It’s okay to cry it out. It’s okay to not be strong all the time. It’s okay to fail. Whats not okay is to let it destroy you. You can, and you will, get back up and begin to pick up the pieces. To this day I still hurt. I still love him. I just have come to terms with the fact it’s over and I’m gonna be okay. So all of you who are struggling please know these feelings are temporary and you will get back to yourself. Time truly does heal wounds. There is no more Ashley and Jay. I’m leaving this post with the final time I speak on us or our marriage. It’s about to be a new year and I’m ready to start a new chapter and not look back. Thank you for all your support through this hard time and a special thank you to @xdestiny_lynnx @ritzy_rina @dolceaestheticsny and @michellee_727 you guys are amazing and I can’t imagine fighting this battle without you. #90dayfiance #tlc #happilyeverafter

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She went on to say it was really over between her and Smith.

“I’ve never felt such pain in my life,” she wrote. “Once upon a time. I don’t blame him for all this. That’s not why I put this place. I just want men and women to know it’s okay not to be okay. It’s okay to shout it out. It’s okay not to be strong all the time. It’s okay to fail. What’s not okay is to let it destroy you. You can, and you will, get back up and start picking up the pieces.”

Although Ashley Martson claims she’ll never get back together with Smith, she still has feelings for him.

“To this day, I’m still in pain,” she continued. “I still love him. I just came to terms with the fact that it’s over and that it’s gonna be okay. So anyone who’s having a hard time knows that these feelings are temporary and that you’re coming back to yourself. Time really heals the wounds. There’s no more Ashley and Jay. I’m leaving this post with the last time I talk about us or our marriage.”