The brother of the Duchess of Cambridge has given a new insight into how he deals with depression.
James Middleton has been frank in the past about living with a mental illness, which he described earlier as a “disease, a cancer of the mind”.
Now the 31-year-old has shared a post on Instagram and revealed more about his life.
“I’ve been in that fear of loneliness, where you’re really alone in the universe,” Middleton wrote on the social media platform.
“Fortunately for me, I had my dogs.”
Earlier this year, Middleton revealed that he was depressed and wrote a revealing artwork for the Daily Mail.
“It’s hard to describe the situation,” he wrote, “It’s not just grief, it’s a disease, a mental illness.”
In the course of 2017, Middleton noticed that his mental health was deteriorating rapidly because he was overwhelmed by depression during his days.
“It is not a feeling but an absence of feelings, you exist without purpose or direction,” he explained.
This was exacerbated by his Attention Deficit Disorder, making it almost impossible for Middleton to focus on anything but his depression.
In December 2017 he decided that he had to escape and ride his dogs to the lake district of England to get away from it all.
He spent days with life simply when he mastered his condition and eventually decided to get help, a decision that would kick his slow but meaningful recovery.
“I knew that if I accepted help there would be hope, it was a little spark of light in the darkness.”
The brother of Kate and Pippa has recently gone through a tumultuous time with his romantic marshmallow company Boomf, which lost more than $ 5 million in three years.
He then had a career change to become a guide in a hotel in the Scottish Highlands. He works in the Glen Affric Lodge near Loch Ness, owned by the father of the husband of his hedge fund manager, James Matthews, from his sister Pippa.
He also split up with actress Donna Air, 39, in February 2018.