Meghan Markle says she was not prepared for the intense media investigation that awaited her after she was married at the British royal family.
The Duchess of Sussex opened up to host Tom Bradby in ITV’s “Harry & Meghan: An African Journey” documentary, aired on Sunday in the UK and broadcast on ABC in the US on Wednesday.
The special objective is to give the audience a look behind the scenes in the recent royal tour of the couple through southern Africa.
When the British journalist asked the 38-year-old how to handle the lack of privacy and ruthless gossip rumors as a new parent, the former American actress replied that she “takes every day as it comes.”
“I think the grass is always greener,” said the former star of “Suits.” “You have no idea. It’s really hard to understand what it is like. I know what it seems to be like, but it’s something completely different.”
Meghan Markle said that she and her husband Prince Harry had conversations about being in the spotlight and all the negativity that goes with it.
“I have long said to H, that is what I call him,” it is not enough to just survive, “Markle said.” That is not the meaning of life. You must thrive. You must feel happy. “I really tried to take on this British sensitivity of a” stiff upper life. ” I really tried, but I think that what it does internally is probably really harmful. “
The royal family told Bradby that if it were fair, she would have a better understanding of the investigation.
“I never thought this would be easy, but I thought it would be fair,” Markle said. “And that is the part that is really hard to reconcile.”
Markle said before she tied up with Harry, 35, some of her friends warned her that joining the royal family would mean that she would be constantly in the spotlight and lose your privacy.
“In all honesty, I had no idea, which probably sounds hard to understand and hear,” Markle said. “But when I first met my nu-husband, my friends were very happy because I was so happy, but my British friends said to me,” I’m sure he’s great, but you shouldn’t do it because the British Gossip magazines will destroy your life. “
“And I, very naive – I’m American,” Meghan Markle continued. “We don’t have that there – [I said],” What are you talking about? That makes no sense. I’m not in tabloids. I didn’t understand. So it’s been complicated. “
Markle also pointed out that it is frustrating to see her name – along with that of her family – in headlines about stories that she emphasized to be untrue.
“If things are fair, that’s fine with me if things are fair,” Meghan Markle said. “If I do something wrong, I would be the first,” Oh my god, I’m so sorry. I would never do that, “but if people say things that are simply not true and they are told that they are not true, but they can still say them, I don’t know anyone in the world who would feel that is fine. And that is different than just research. That is, what would you call that? That is another beast. It is really a different beast. “
In a clip released earlier Friday by ITV, Meghan Markle was frank with Bradby about the negative media attention she received during her pregnancy and the first months with Archie, who was born in May.
“Every woman, especially when she’s pregnant, you’re really vulnerable, and so that was made really challenging,” said the 38-year-old. “And if you have a newborn, you know it. … and especially as a woman, it’s a lot. “
“So you add this on top of just trying to be a new mother or a newlywed,” Markle continued, holding back tears. “It is um … yes. I think you also thank you for asking, because not many people have asked if I am doing well. But it is very real to go behind the scenes.”
When Bradby asked if it would be “fair” to say that “she is not really OK, because it was really a struggle,” Markle said, “Yes.”
Yet Markle said that Harry and their son went through difficult times.
“It’s OK,” she said. “The good thing is that I have my baby and my husband and they are the best.”
In the documentary, Harry also spoke out against the British gossip magazines for the “ruthless” treatment that Markle received “in the past year, during her pregnancy and while raising our newborn son.”
“Look, part of this work and part of every work, like everyone else, means you have to show a brave face and turn a cheek to many things,” he explained. “But then again, for me and my wife, there are of course many things that hurt – especially if most of them aren’t true.”
“All we have to do is focus on being real, focusing on people are who we are and stand up for what we believe in,” Harry said. “I will not be bullied to play a game that killed my mother.”